sick.. but much beta

still sick...but feelin much betta...

went for today sv... very good.. tok abt fishy-fishy stuffs.. haha.. didn;t meant to joke abt it but anyway the message was great!!! jux tat i couldn't reallii concentrate... cuz moii lousy cum stuppiid results n sickness jux kept on runnin thru moii mind..i oso kept on coughin thru out the sv.. not funnie @ ol..

then after tat.. went to hav lunch... then decide to watch 'i not stupiid too' ... finally gt to watch it!! yes!! was a great movie man.. help to relief sum of moii stress!!
comments on the movie...
1.touching
2.funnie
3.related to todae society
4.makes u think [[have u praise somebody today? when was the time someone ever praise u...]]
5.very JACK NEO style...
6.marvellous!!

but for this entire dae.. i can't jux help but to keep on thinkin on moii lousy cum stupiid resu;ts!!
millions of -ve thoughts went thru moii mind ever since i took back moii results..

cannot go into the NP course le lar..
wad if no sch wants moii
wad if i gotta retake!!
y cut-off pts of media courses soooo highh
is my calling really wad it is??

argggghhhhh...
couldn't take all these anymore...
so i cried...
hab been cryin these 2 nitex lah...
not huppi wit this results lo...
y moii other fwens gt so gd results??
didn't i work hard enough??
arrrrrgggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel like givin' up evrythingy n jux die...
but i can't cos..
this is jux a test frm God...
if even tis small little test i can't pass...
wad more big things God can leave moii to do??

i realli dunnoooo wad's His plans for mii...
where to go next??
i certainly ain;t gt a single idea...
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??
???
????

but i gonna go on... @ least God didn;t let mii flunk tis o.levls ...
i improved on mooii amths n combined sc. PRAISE LORD abt this!!
i jux gotta seek Him..
Ask Him...

i'm jux not feelin' good rite now.. but i still wanna work for Him.. soul-winnin n stuffs.. i wanna chioong for God.. but there's jux this thingy infront of mii.. n i jux can;t get on the rite way n move on... y ne??... hiaz... sianx... i oso dunoo...